The TRUTH

Im not only happy for this baby, Im happy to be with her. Im happy to have her in my life.





Im trying. not hard enough, but I will try harder.

I know I can do this.

8 WEEKS!!!!

WOW such a big difference. we went to visit the doctor yesterday and i saw the sonogram. it was HUGE...well compared to two weeks ago. the baby is now a fetus and healthy. im so excited. its growing fast. extremely fast. i wonder if im the only one that feels uncomfortable with the damn doctor all in my girlfriends vagina. makes me wanna punch em in the forehead. but all in all the baby is healthy and im trying my hardest to make sure it and the momma is doing fine. =) ill keep it updated..or at least try to. i know ive missed a few weeks.


peace love and condoms.

WTF?!! WEEK 6!

So today was the first visit to the gyno to get started on this journey =) i went with michelle, her mom and her sister, and to my surprise. the baby wasnt 4 weeks like i thought before but 6!!!. i actually saw the baby's heartbeat for the first time and the actual shape of the alien lookin head lol. its so amazing how something so little has such a loud and strong heartbeat. everyone cried. i just smiled...its amazing and even though i was upset for a bit. seeing the baby made me forget EVERYTHING. at that moment nothing mattered except that little habichuela in there. the doctor then gave her lots of prenatal pills and information. (I GOT A TICKET!) we then went out to get blood work done,and then out to VIP diner to eat lunch. it was my first time really hangin out wit her family.....it was nice. then we went back to my house and i kicked some ass on call of duty. so far the hormones are hilarious. lol. weve been in nothin but fights back to back but its getting better now. lol.

now im at her house watching ghost adventures on tv. im running out of things to say. ill keep the pregnancy updated next week. and now a word from meech



hi =) extremely excited about my baby ! i just cant wait until i feel the baby kicking a moving around. i wonder how ima react when i first feel it. i might be scared. when it comes up to things moving in my body in get a little scared. im blessed to have all the support i have now. im happy. and yeah fights are popping up outta no where but me and babe are strong. we get through them. i dont think we got a choice to because we have a kid arriving. we'll be okay ..
the ultra sound went great though! i heard the heartbeat and i was soooo happy. i dont know why my sister and my mom was crying. i was caught up in the moment. i was happy that ill be mother very soon and danny and i will make decisions for our lil bean once it comes out =D

Blessing in disguise. (Week4)

So it has come to my knowledge that my current girlfriend is pregnant =). It has been a rough week for the both of us but we are still here and trying our hardest to make this work and give this baby a good life. I consider this a "Darma and Greg" situation. If anyone hasn't seen the show, its about this couple that up and get married without even thinking twice about it. they just go for it. the same has happened here. It wasnt the traditional wedding and then child dream that most have. This wasnt planned, but we will make the most of it.

Im excited about this kid and as you see on the top im wishing for a girl. i will update this weekly to keep track of this pregnancy. This is a blessing. i know it.

Birth.

Ive finally started drawing again. although they arnt my original work, i do rather really enjoy working on them. i download pics to my phone. and draw them out myself. my hobby. ill be uploading them here from time to time.

Dream.

Im sitting here on my bed. watching my friend play COD. Sometimes i drift off into thought and wonder what life would be like if different decisions were made. Life is sometimes hard to understand, whats right and wrong, black and white, have blurred. Everything is gray. Im not all that content at the moment. I dont know what it is that im missing. Hopefully ill find it one day.

its been so long since i even remembered i had a blog..hmmm..idk what to write right about now. times have been ok i guess. parents moved to north carolina so ive had to fend for myself here back at home since i didnt wanna go with them. living by myself for about5 months now. currently sitting in front of my tv playing call of duty. but internet seems to be acting up. keep getting kicked out of servers. waiting on my roomate to come home to see some new laptops i wanna buy. school just recently started. taking 2 psychology classes. so far they seem ok. cutting back on classes due to the cost being too much. it seems like im never gonna finish. ive been going for so long. oh well gotta go. be back some other day for a well written entry.