...alone

no matter who's around me, i feel...

no matter what anyone tells me i feel...

no matter where i am i feel...

when im home i feel...

when i walk i feel...

when i wake up i feel...

when i shower i feel...

when i eat i feel...

when i go to the mall i feel...

when i sit at a table and the other seat is empty i feel...

when i suffer from pain and everyones too buisy to listen i feel...

when i do so much for you and still you seem to not care i feel...

when i ask you to meet my girlfriend and you say no i feel...

when i come home and i cant speak to you about my day i feel...

growing up with no friends i felt...

not being able to have ppl over i felt...

growing up thinking the world was evil outside of the church made me feel...

knowing that you dont want to be a part of my life outside those doors makes me feel so...

knowing that your leaving next year makes me feel...

locked up in my room i feel...

saying hi and bye only makes me feel...

when i try to tell you about my day and you just say "thats what wordly ppl do" makes me feel...

when i take you out on dates and do nice things for you and in turn i get ignored and hung up on and trampled all over i feel so...

when for one small argument you can stay away for an entire day i feel so...

when i cant decide on what to do with my life i feel so...

when you tell me your going out day after day after day and having fun while im stuck with no invites or no plans i feel so...

when you tell me what you and your family do i feel so...

when you tell me of the love your family shares i feel so...

when you post facebook statuses telling of your success i feel so...

when i see tv shows and movies of happiness and love i feel so...

when you would tell me to get over it and hang up i feel so...

when you would walk away from me and slam the door in my face i would feel so...

when i would cry on the phone to you about my life and the very next moment or day you would again treat me how you see fit i would feel so...

when i sit at home on a friday and look through my fone to c who i can ask to go out i feel...

when i cant pick anyone kuz they are too buisy i feel so...

when i go through my buddy list to look for someone to spend time with i feel...

when i see all the away messages of plans i feel so...

when even in the company of someone i found to go out with i feel so...

i didnt begin my life feeling...

i dont want to live my life feeling...

i dont want to end my life feeling...

i believe i will rest my soul feeling...

...alone.